Friends With Benefits

I have seen numerous people post about this and I'm having a realization of my own and thought I would contribute.

Everyone wants friends with benefits to work out. The thing I like about having a friend you fool around with is it's comfortable. And I guess in the case of Co-worker, it's sort of scandalous. But I think I might be developing feelings for Co-worker. Not feelings like I wish he were my boyfriend, because trust me when I say this, he annoys me to no end on numerous occasions. I just like to feel like I'm number one, and when you're friends with benefits, you are always looking for something else out there. Now, my ex-friends boyfriend, I need a name for him...how about Comic, because he is super funny. Comic and I live almost 3 hours away from one another and I know he would not be the kind of boyfriend I would want, but I have fun with him and I feel really happy with him. So what if we have chemistry and fool around? I know it isn't going anywhere and so does he.

But why does friends with benefits leave me a little sad, wanting more? I think with Comic I am fine with it because we openly talk about his ex-girlfriend and I know where his head is at. Plus we are like best friends. We talk every day. I know he cares about me for more than just sex. Co-worker on the other hand tries to hide everything, with his ex-girlfriends or maybe current girlfriends who knows? And I think that is where the friends with benefits is getting messed up. Everyday I feel conflicted about Co-worker, but at the end of the day, I find it hard to quit. It's safe, it's fun, and it's consistant. Why use my hand when I can use Co-worker? I don't think friends with benefits will ever be solved, at least not by me. With one person it works, with another, it doesn't. And maybe I'm too deep into it with Co-worker to step back and see if it's working or not. I just know the sex is great, but I hate that sometimes he is shady about where he's going for the weekend or what the real situation is with the other women in his life.

Totally unrelated...one of my favorite blogs has the best idea and I can't wait to participate. She is asking for bloggers to submit stories, and since I'm single, it will be about one of my craziest dating stories ever. Er...dating/sexual experience :) I can't wait to share because it's actually crazy dating stories that made me want to do this blog. You'll have to check it out over there to see other people's horror stories. It will hopefully make us all feel a little better about our stories!